I find myself thinking alot lately. Most of the time it is just something that pops into my head, but I just can't stop my thoughts. Thinking too much is starting to ruin my life and I don't know how to be myself anymore.
About three years ago I changed schools. That's where it all begun. I just let someone take a stupid picture of me and my few friends. That someone made the shot too early...we weren't ready yet, but that picture put thoughts in my head. I hadn't seen my side-profile before on a photo so I hadn't realised how much I hate it and how much (I thought) others might dislike it. That stupid photo made me so self-conscious that every time I heard someone laughing, I thought they were laughing over me, every time someone whispered, it was something bad about my looks. Because of that I don't like big crowds and gossiping. Although it has gotten better over the years, my head is still so messed up because of this.... I want to stop thinking!
Yume
